The Side Effects of Endorphins

If something is too easy, it’s probably not worth doing it

KMS

I’ve spent my entire life doing things that are scary, that’s what life is all about getting out of our comfort zone. I’m not claiming to have slain every demon that’s out there, but that’s the beauty of life. That is being terrified of doing something and doing it. it has a certain cathartic feeling to it.

Lying in Bed

I remember lying in bed three days before my first marathon, thinking my car probably won’t even make it that far. I had a few minutes of imposter syndrome and eventually fell back asleep.

Fear of Heights

Believe me when I say, I have not conquered this, I’m still terrified of heights. I remember running in the Columbia Gorge on an ultra run running behind waterfalls 500 feet above the ground. I was terrified and wanted to throw up. Here I sit typing.

As a Child

I remember talking to my mom when I was maybe six years old. I talked to her about being terrified of meeting new people. How am I going to do this? Her words of wisdom or something close to “you’ll figure it out. “

Yes, I have.

Grad School

I went to grad school and I was one of the top students in marketing. When I got out into the real world, I didn’t want to sell anything. Marketing equates to sales. There were no products I felt comfortable selling to people. It was about then, that I questioned on the whole idea of capitalism. If people want something they will come and get it. It may be a fear of rejection. I see it as a sign of respect. I left the marketing world soon after grad school.

Fear Number One

Having recently comforted our beloved black lab from this world to wherever we go, I was far too close to death. Not me dying, but the whole concept of death. I’m not a religious person but the whole concept of death is too large and weird and supernatural for me to even grasp.

So Sometimes I write about it.